Quarantine QT.......... knowing what work or don't

Hey Embrace'rs

How are you feeling? what is in the agenda for today? Happy Monday!! It has been an extremely mentally busy week. I noticed, as an adult, getting an adequate sleep and starting your day with a energized, and having a nutritional meal or replacement meal  is very important and necessary. I've slept at my optimal time, however i would wake with aches on my shoulder cuffs. I decided that i have to start my day with a green machine drink, water, and DAILY to-do list . in order for my day to be well balanced and purposeful. 

Baby daddy drama is overrated i am sick n tired of talking about him. I believed i handled him extremely well, i did slip up with the cussing. but I am human. Him and I are still working on a neutral ground on this new relationship. Stay tuned with that!

Now for the one and only amazing man of my life, He is soo amazing. Everything about him is amazing, yes girlll, even his flaws. Our goal is to work on seeing each other again. I know I know, how you guys did it. Actually, in the beginning I was still working something out with my kids' father, and I realized he was NOT it. the start of the new year. it just didn't feel right at all. I am in the house with the kids and he is outside doing God knows what instead of enjoying the moments with us. then want to ask for something towards the night, disrespecting his dad's house. I just feel soo dirty, a whore with this man around. 

Yeah, so back to my hunni, HE IS JUST AMAZING!! :-D. I'll tell you more about him when the first real date happens. we have been only speaking over the phone, so i do not want any bad juju's on my new love life.

My business is still a working progress. I ain't trying go back to work as a Home Health Aide. I am no longer there in my life to go back. so it is all or nothing when it comes to the steps of getting my business off the ground.  I am Here! I am Present! I am Ready! it is a great feeling to feel accomplished in my life after everything I've endured. 

C.R.U.S.H (Can't Rest Until Something Happens - Tyler ) is my acronym to get me through this hustle in building the empire. 

Until next time, Don't forget to end your night with prayer, wake up with prayer, Be thankful, start your day on purpose, a light,fulfilled nutritional meal, water, write down a To-do list for the day and go do some work,sis! 

 Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. Stay Safe. Stay Well. Stay faithful. I love ya'll. Remember Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself.  Aba Iseini 

Ellie 

I am EmbraceU

Quarantine QT ......... Week's tea and thangs

Hey Embrace'rs

Thriving Thursday, isn't it? How are you feeling? What are you thriving to complete this week?.
I have been reading,studying,and spending time with the very people I've been quarantine with. Let me share some of my thoughts with you. I will soon create a 'Mamas loves Jesus' and EmbraceU merch.  God wants me to be still; and allow HIM to do what he do. On my behalf, Its so challenging because I am so used to being on the go, and wanting what I want immediately.
This goes for relationships, business, and  finances But God always put me in my place when it comes to embracing the ones I am doing all this hard work for. 'Don't be conform in the things of this world, but be of things from above' ( my paraphrase of a scripture). He is still in control.
Yooo can I be honest, I've been wanting to go dancing for while now. May this period of isolation lifts soon because I want to go dancing., preferably my cultural dance. I love me some punta and I love my culture. Random thought, i know. I am just having fun with you, guys! I miss writing to ya'll. It feels so good writing.
Oh yeah, my kids' father staying at his mamas house now, since he had a huge disagreement with his dad and on top of that, he still have not seen the kids since then. I am not pressed on that anymore. the kids are doing great. they still very much love their dad, and the door is always open for them to spend time with their dad also. they understand what is going on between their mom and dad and it has nothing to do with loving them. 
Oh can I mention to you how amazing my special man is, OMG! everything about him is amazing. he challenges me in way that brings me closer to God. It feels so great to be in his presence I do not want to mess this up. I am longing to see him in the flesh, and feel his physical touch. we have soo much to talk about.  this man is more amazing now than he did years ago. We've matured, we know exactly what we want and our conversations are exhilarating.Our day's goes so well and purposeful.
Oh, I also wanted to mention that my mother and I relationship is progressing, Gaining a closer relationship with my heavenly Father is allowing me to learn more about my mom as a woman. which feels great since I've been trying for years to conduct just like my mom and it failed for me. I realized that I can only move the only way I know how to function and process things in my life.
  I also miss going to the gym.....I noticed how much I love food and I love to work out lol and my body misses it. Downfall is home is too comfortable for me to do any work outs. DEADASS!!.So once the gyms are open. I am starting a workout plan. Until next time my beautiful people. Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. 🧡

 Stay Safe. Stay Well. I love ya'll. Aba Iseini

~ Ellie ~

Quarantine QT.............. week's revelation on expectation!

Hey Embrace'rs

Happy Monday! I've prayed that you were expressed some much love, admiration, and appreciation from the humans you carried and raised. I had a superb great time weekend. As you know, i am always with the kids. but this past Friday, I decided to allow the kids to spend time with their dad; yes, I know the entire time of isolation they have not spent time with each other and it was not because I wanted to be bitter; i felt it was not safe or advisable allow them to be around their dad since the last encounter where he verbally and physically harassed me. During this quarantine, he realized and concluded that we are no longer interested in being an item, and it is strictly about the children's well beings and livelihood. 

So the kids left Friday, late afternoon, I gave them a huge hug and released them to their dad. OMG, the way they have embraced their dad was such a precious moment ; that it will be forever embedded into my memory because you can actually see, first hand, how much all three of them missed each other. I wished i had my phone to capture that moment. but anyways, They went off with their dad. I returned back upstairs, organized the living room, swept, mopped and listened to some R&B tunes. Thereafter, I took a nap( it felt great! ;-). then i ate dinner, poured me two nice cup of something to drank, cherry lime RITA, with a shot of tequila in it to be exacted. I am sipping, watching and laughing at videos of empowered women on you tube. all of while my mom was jokingly checking up on me to see if i was asleep or a wake. the energy was tranquil and enjoyable. First time, This year, I actually had some 'me time', and I embraced every moment of it. But, it came to stoppage on Saturday afternoon, when the kids' dad called me stating that he had to return the kids back home because he had a huge argument with his dad( their granddad). 

As I mentioned above and previously, this time of isolation as caused me to stay in the Word more often than usual to sustain my mental state. I already had about 4 mental breakdowns; and usually suffered in silence. But I am happy now. I am well and able to balance my daily routine and my goals because this, too shall pass. all things of this world is temporary and things of God is eternal. So all I am doing is Looking Up! and standing in a state of expectancy for the Lord. Anything in my heart, I, too shall give to the Lord Our God and He will make it better. 

You asked; Ellie, what is the point you are making here?,  I am glad you asked, because this past weekend expressed to me that in everything I have experienced or felt during this isolation period, God is still very much with me, and us. we can not give up! Stay prayed up! Be still. Because The Victory belongs to Him. and we need to Trust in Him. He, Our Creator, is in control of it all. So as much as you, as humans, as a woman, as a mom want to control everything. we can not, even if we tried....... If so, We are going to drive ourselves to another mental breakdown.  And then what?, so that is all I have for you. 

Always know that Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. 

Continue to stay safe. Stay well. Stay blessed. Aba Isieni.

~ Ellie ~ 

I am EmbraceU 

Quarantine QT............Weekend bond & cold tea!

Hey Embrace'rs

Happy Monday!!! How are you feeling? how are you doing?. Two months on locked down. What have you accomplished? Did you learned anything different about yourself? or picked a hobby?
This past weekend was mommy and kids day, no writing, no working, strictly bonding with the children. I enjoyed myself, so did the kids. We finally went outside, they rode their scooters, i walked, they picked up some flowers, for me. (which was the best part because I love flowers ). then they wanted to ride to McDonald. Sis had money in her pocket and wanted to spend it with her little brother. We got home, had a indoor picnic, with snacks, soda, water and played monopoly mommy edition, I am horrible at board games, so we were just winging that shit. my daughter took a short nap, explained that she had a long day and she had fun so she is charging her battery. ( if i have not told ya'll yet i am telling ya'll now that little girl do NOT TAKE NAPS);which means mommy mission accomplished!!
Oh Yeah, can i finally say my kids' father is finally letting go, THANK YOU JESUS!!!,Currently planning on a notarized written statement, consisting visitations,children's  allowance, and signed travel consent; so there will not be any future confusion between the both of us.
Oh!, I am soon will be an official homeowner, ya'll! Just emailed a response back on accepting my terms, just need to print some copies to be ready for my appointment visits. I AM SO EXCITED! I am going to finally be a homeowner. My dreams is slowly coming to reality. it was challenging yet rewarding to say the least. Today, have been a chill day- kids are happy and whole, mami cooling and whole. everyone else is working hard and whole. As for next time, I shall have some more to tell. 

To manifest your dreams into reality:

1. write it down, give to God, Be specific- It is nothing like receiving something you really did not want. God is a Big God, Ask Him and dare to receive it. He may answer overnight or He may need to work some things within you. then release it so you'll be prepared to receive it. 

2. Do your part- faith without work is dead! . for instance, if your goals involves needed improvement financially, emotionally, physically,and mentally. It is necessary to practice stewardship; managing all resources God has provided to you for His Glory.

 3. Stay prayed up!, talking with Our Creator of the universe is free; He is always listening, He cares, and He is the comfort that you need. Follow those instruction, and watch yourself walk right into your dreams into your reality. Take in all I am speaking to you because it is all about love and unity to reach your greatness. 

Remember Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. 

Stay well. Stay Safe. Stay blessed. I love ya'll.

~ Ellie ~EmbraceU I am

Quarantine QT....... week's revelation of honesty, and no expectations

Hey Embrace'rs


WE MADE IT TO ANOTHER FRIDAY!! what a delightful expression to be here, the sun still shining, nice weather, and extremely peaceful. Tell me about yourself?,your day?, how are you feeling?. what did you do today?, what colors are you wearing?
This week has been pretty cool to me, i walked this week, enjoyed some QT with my babies, read two books, watched a few sermons, had an EX-factor revelation!!............
So now we have described our week. Let me tell you about the highlight of my week, the holy spirit been speaking to me ode this week and i definitely had the ears to listen to it all. As you know, walking in faith; it is extremely important to be obedient to the Word of God. Because being obedient is what leads to your blessings. 

Many people, perhaps have a difference of opinions and perception of the higher being of the universe. However, I believe in the Trinity. God, the Son of God  and the Holy Spirit. they are very much real and My life is a living proof of it. .
So yeah, let me tell you about the revelation I've experienced. Remember how I told ya'll that I've been through an abusive relationship, well my ex wrote to me, in very respectable manner this time, that i had no choice to respect back.   Initially it took me aback; which means, I had to study in the word, mediate, ask God to guide me in what to say, how to say it, and not to expect anything, as far as a response.Just be open, honest, and respectful. So I did.
 I read his email, then I wrote him back via email. As I was writing this email, stating my feelings of how he made me feel throughout the entire decade we been dealing with each other, followed by a deep conversation, a couple days after, discussing it all. I truly believe that those two experiences has been the eye opener of the healing process of both him and I finally establishing a healthy co existing and co parenting relationship. Establishing boundaries about the well being and welfare of our children. We had spoken  and we were both open to listening to understand one another, no expectations, no disappointments and it went extremely well. As i am not surprised at all; since it was not all me in it. All glory go to God! Because my flesh definitely wanted to defend defend defend......... yet I held it down for a bigger picture in all this. the conversation gotten intense, it was a little bit of passionate yelling going on, but overall, it went very well.
But if you didn't get a hold of the point I was conveying here, is this ?.
Whenever you are healing from a traumatic experience(s), or person in your life, To move forward in the healing process, Be open, be honest, use your active listening skills, and Trust in the God (in the higher power) in your direction in what to say, even if and when you have a bouts of fear. Just Trust in Him.
That is all I have for ya'll. Have a wonderful night. Stay well, Stay safe. Keep in mind that Love is the new religion and Unity is our mission. Embracing yourself is to loving yourself. Until next time. Love Ya'll!. 

Aban Isieni  xoxo

~ Ellie ~

I am EmbraceU