Face the truth or Deal with Guilt!

Hey Embracer's 

What's gon' on? what is new with ya'll and the babies? Have ya'll decided to continue with the remote learning, homeschooling or return them back to physical school?. Let me tell you about my decision, them babies are returning to physical school, and be sociable with their friends, and teachers. It has been a year and couple months. We are ready to  open outside. we have learned our lesson and becoming more appreciative to one another, and opportunities. Oh, wow! speaking of becoming more appreciative; so one of my kings and I drove to Virginia to pick up my babies from their dad. but guess what, their dad refused to release them to me because of his ego, his pride would not let him release the kids to me. now he is sitting in his guilt. I wish him well though, i wish him love everywhere he goes. Yet, i am so done. I gave it to God.

The way God has been moving this whole week, I knew something major is coming for me and my team. He is getting me prepared for it. 

Before I went to VA, their dad had asked when I am coming for the kids, I told him mid week, then I told him a specific date because I had off from work. So one of my kings and I drove there to get the babies. I got there and the enemy was just busy, using their dad. First of all, he had a whole defense guard when I arrived, I rung the bell, the kids looked through the window, open the door and ran to me. Both of their faces lit up cheerfully. I was so happy, filled with so much admiration when I saw my babies. Then, baby boy said ' I am going to fold my clothes and pack my bags. the princess was a little hesitate while packing because she was scared of her dad's reaction. Him and I started talking in the front porch of his mama's house. he got a little heated while expressing himself, then he began to refuse to release the kids back to me. I Called Norfolk police, an officer came after 30 minutes. I spoke to him and stated, in the state of Virginia, he has 50/50 rights to the kids, despite the fact of any verbal agreement between parents. Long story short, I returned to Atlanta, Georgia; no babies. I was disappointed yet I am so thankful for the opportunity to had saw and embraced them. 

The next morning, their dad texted this long  message via text  to me stating his justification for his action. Tried to blame me for something, clearly he was wrong. You basically rushed me to get the kids, I found an inexpensive way to go get them, then I get there and he tells me no, and blocks the door. 

when I called and waited on the police, I received whatever information I needed. I kissed my babies, told them to keep talking and singing to God, you'll be coming home real soon' and walked off. to the closest 7 eleven, phone battery needed to be charged and I got lost after a few minutes into walking..lol 🤦🏽‍♀️

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention to ya'll, my Sonshine called me, as i was en route back to GA, and he asked me why him and his sister did not come with me and I had to tell him because daddy did not want to release you both; the rules in Virginia were different and mommy have to listen to the rules. he asked about my mentor, also a pastor; he stated, 'nanu and I can't go with you and a pastor that doesn't make sense....' 😖those were his words. 

When it comes to speaking with your babies about life situations please TELL THE TRUTH no matter what the end results gon' be because once you are aware and reap those awareness, the truth will make you free any word bondage you've created in the past. 

..... And ye shall know the truth, and the truth, shall make you free'. John 8:32

Remember Embracing you is to Loving you. Love is the religion, Unity is the mission. 

I love you. Keep doing your best and allow YAH to handle the rest. 

aba Iseini

I am EmbraceU 

Love is the religion, Unity is the mission

 

Hey Embracer's 

How are you? How are the babies? what's new with life?, Email me if it is too personal to comment down below. I just came back from New York to be present for my sister's bridal shower. it was so divinely orchestrated. the colors scheme, the sun shine, clear blue skies, a splash of breeze and of course the good vibes with some awesome women and unlimited mimosas. Yeah, it was great!. So Kenny and I are working out this co-parenting really well, the communication has increasingly improved. may it stay that way!. The Kids are coming home this weekend, I already enroll them into school, I feel excited and ready to have them back home. I miss their presence so much.  I've enjoyed their absence long enough, it is time for them to come home. Also, Kenny is relocating here in Atlanta,  So that is a great thing for the kids to still have their dad near for them to bond with. 

After all that has happened throughout the years, especially 2020 I can actually admit that i am extremely grateful for the lessons and blessings that came with it. it has developed me into this new woman willing to learn, embrace, and love life just as God intended for me. 

"Behold, how good and how pleasant it is. For brethren to dwell together in unity!.....For there the Lord commanded the blessing - Life forevermore' Psalm 133:1,3 .

Remember Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. Stay safe. Stay blessed, be a blessing. Until next time. Aba Iseini 💗

~Ellie~

~ I am EmbraceU ~

Humans United, The Wicked Divided!

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Hey Embracer's 

what's gon' on with you?. No, really?!...comment below. These past couple weeks has been overwhelmingly blissful. the mixture of emotion from nervousness, excitement, and a little scared. Let me tell you about my days at work; it was pretty smooth , however, the last couple days as been intense. my spirit is no longer there anymore. I've moved on within myself. I believe my assignment as a caregiver in two caring hands is coming to an end and it is time for me to go on a start living as I always saw myself to live. How does that look like?, As a young child, I saw myself working in education, but not as a educator for society. Allow me to simplify this here. I've never saw myself in a classroom; teaching 20-25 students. I saw myself in my own school, teaching kids, young adults, and even adults through my writings. I pictured my writings inspiring others that would listen, understand, and can be moved by what I wrote. 

Remember I mentioned, my two kings I met in the shelter. Since then, we created a home, with the love we shared for one another. they are so awesome. I've learned so much about them and myself. You know, I am just thinking, connecting the dots so it can make sense to me. I am here to say, that it is never ever to late to pursue your dreams, and be a lifelong learner. The people God has placed in your lives are considered a learning tool; you have to take what you learn from them to build quality relationships. 

His word says 'iron sharpeth iron', which means that we need each other to get through this life. This world is finding ways to separate us; not knowing they need us, to make the world operate. Some may ask what do I mean by "they", I mean the wicked one, the one that doesn't love God. the creator of the universe and humanity. 

All of the current events occurring are basically trying to get humans to go against God without saying it. The time is Now to wake up and plug to The Source, build a relationship with Him; and He will connect you to others connected to Him so ya'll learn and heal from each other. 

Until Next time, Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. Stay Connected. Stay Ready. Be Ready. I love ya'll and I desire to see you all on the other side of this.

 Aba Iseini 💓💞

I am EmbraceU 💗

~Ellie~

Find the woman again and Love her!

 Hey Embracer's 

It has definitely been a while since I wrote to ya'll. but guess what I've been increasing my faith and walking into each glory God has for me. From the previous blog, I stated I relocated to Atlanta, Ga. I packed my one small luggage, few dollars in my account, and started a major change. The babies are still staying with their dad; not for long though. With the grace of God, they are making it the best they can in remote learning. 

I am starting the process to enroll them into their new school down here in forest park area- this area is family oriented and quiet. my apartment is nice; I practically manifested this apartment. 2 bedroom 2 bath, patio space, washer/dryer, modern granite wall, flooring, almost fully furnished. the babies' bunk bed are on the way. I worked so hard on myself to get where I am right now and this is just the beginning. God is definitely not done with me nor mine. OH MY GOSH! guess what! my niece and nephew has returned to NYC. my brother has full custody on them, also my cousins are just prospering in their endeavors. I've been on my face every single day and night for me and mine. I am so happy and in awe of my answered prayers just unfolding itself. 

Last but not least, ya'll remember the man of my dreams I saw last year at pororo. Well him and I have made it official. Discussing the future, and us sharing it with each other is all we talk about. God already gave me confirmation that he is, indeed the one because I finally stopped looking. Literally!. Everything I could ever desire and need in a man is standing right in front of me, loving the heck out of me and the reciprocity is there also. 

I just gave ya'll a mouthful but this is just the beginning of my new journey as my own woman living in my element. 

Next month is National poetry month and I am excited to express my creative work to the world. So mamas, if you have not done the work to know yourself and to love yourself more. the time is now!. You need to show up for You because the babies are watching you. They watching how you love yourself, so they can also learn to normalize what love really looks like and express it within themselves. 

Always remember Embracing you is to loving you! Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. I am here to express to you that you are more than just a mother. You are a woman also. Find that woman back again. Think about yourself before the babies came along, and learn to love her again. 

I also silk pressed my hair and I've received so much compliments. 😜

Aba Iseini 💗

~ Ellie ~

~ I am EmbraceU ~

Walking through the new city with Faith!!

 

Hey Embracer's 

Yo girl is back!! I have plenty to update you on. So grab yo' cup of tea and take a read. 

So what I mentioned previously about my trip to Atlanta was my test of my faith and loyalty to My Father. when I tell you, I ain't know anybody nor came for somebody. I always wanted to move to the south and so the opportunity aligned itself. Shall my story continue on how God did it for me. I was homeless, but never went without shelter and I am grateful for that. I slept in warming center met some cool women, then I slept in Hilton Inn in Newnan for two nights, that was nice! Afterwards, I found myself a temporary stay at a church shelter; for 21 days. In those 21 days, I met some interesting spirits, I am not even going to say people because, as you know, we  just overcame a spiritual warfare. Ya'll should have seen me, i was out here cutting them demons left and right!. But I did, meet two amazing Black Kings; one of different generation than me and we work so well for the purpose of God's glory. 

Before I tell ya'll more about the two kings added in my life. Let me tell you about my walk to midtown. ain't nothing like midtown in Manhattan; something like it, but more trees and I love it!. I went walking to Pied mount Park; that park right there is beautiful. the trails, the people, bathrooms everywhere and its clean!!.😎 and guess what, there are doggie parks; like legit, two sections of the park for the small and big dogs to interact and play with each other. This is amazing, coming from a woman from Up North and never seen no shit like that there. So I did this for about two days, then I started working, Yes, yo' girl working for UPS, processing mail, and looking cute all at the same damn time. You know, I can do that! 😇I've been working for two weeks, received my first two pay and it felt good!. Then, the holidays came around, work started slowing down but it was cool because, guess what?, I ended being blessed to reside in house in Hampton, GA; a couple days before my 21 days. If you do not see God moving, I do not know what to tell ya'll. But Let me tell you more next go around. 

Remember Embracing you is to loving you. 

Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. Stay blessed. Stay safe. Stay healthy. 

Aba Iseini 💗

Ellie 

 I am EmbraceU 

Going through the process, Holding on to the promises

Hey Embracer's 

How are you doing? How are you feeling? What is new in your life, the babies' lives?. As you know, I am in Atlanta, GA. it has been quite an adventure for just being here for almost a week. But I've been plugging myself into The Source, with prayer. I met some awesome people along the way, originally not from Atlanta yet they let me know the ups & downs of their journey. I am just enduring the process God has me in and holding on to His promises to my life. 

Briefly go back to my babies, so my princess has rose two reading level, understanding, pronouncing her words. then my sonshine also got tested in his sight words and he has read a level B book today. they both ate some nutritional well balanced meals. they feel a difference when they eat right. Since I am living in motels, resources are quite limited to my standards, however, this, too shall pass so I ain't sweating it. 

Oh yeah, I am also reading a new book, and it is about this mother that started her own preschool business from the ground up. Yes, your girl here, is finally making the necessary steps to open up her own preschool for the community. Ever since I left my comfort zone and stop making excuses to stay complacent. My ideas just been flowing. the only thing that needs to be aligned is the finances. But My God will provide it all, He told me soo.....so I believe it to be. 

'I am God, there is no other. Trust in me. I got you covered. Don't worry. Don't overthink; flow in me!' is my daily instruction during this process I am in. And i am sharing with you all to follow suit in these instruction. those words has gotten me out of some dangerous stuff the enemy has plotted against me. 

I just might share with you a other poem; let's see what The Lord wants me to share to the Embracer's. 

But I am not going to write too long, you may have some tasks to complete for the night. Just remember Embracing you is to loving you.. Stay plugged to the source, and the Source will express goodness to you.  

Stay healthy. Stay well. Love is the religion. Unity is the mission. Freedom is our birthright. Shall we own it and walk in it. 

Aba Iseini 

~ Ellie ~

Quarantine Update: Set yourself free to Fly!

 Hey Embracer's 

How are you?. You can not believe where am I right now. I have a lot to talk about with ya'll. But let's begin with what have you been up to?, Have you been healing?, any adjustments  or story time on remote learning?...How are the babies?. Please feel free to comment below: I want to know updates on ya'll. reach out to me via email if you desire for a listening ear, or prayer request. Oh yeah, Happy Thanksgiving!!! my day was quiet, I got invited to eat with my pastor and his family, the food was great, the company was great. I enjoyed myself. 

But yeah, so guys I finally did it ya'll. I am here in Chamblee, Georgia, not to far from Downtown Atlanta. I am literally in little central America. tienda guatematecos, the uber driver, the front desk, even the neighbors were divine. Now I am in an environment where I can write and work. It feels great. I can not believe it I am here. I just want to give God all the praise for sending me here, and guess what I am already in line for work also. Keep that in prayers. I found two churches, and a mini market, and a school all in walking distance. I even completed my step goal for the day. 

The word I mediated on today is Proverb 3:5, ya'll should know that scripture; 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart, in all your ways; Acknowledge Him. He shall direct your path.  

'Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way.' Deuteronomy 8:2

' Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid: For YAH, the Lord is my strength and song" Isaiah 12:2 

After doing what I just did, booking my bus ticket, sat on a 14 hours ride, I finally took the leap of faith, I've been longing for. Unsure what is to come but I know it is good because God is here with me and He is Good. Period! 

The next step: To serve in a church. Abba orders. I'll let ya'll know how that went. I can not wait to bring my babies here when I am settle with a home for us to call our own. 

I also have to begin my weight loss journey,  i feel great but i gained too much and i do not like it. Keep ya'll updated on that. 

Until next time, Remember Embracing you is to loving you. When the Lord set you free, you are free indeed. Own it. Claim it. Heal. and Fly!!! Continue to stay safe, stay healthy, stay blessed. I love ya'll .

Follow me on IG @iamembraceu, fb page EmbraceUIAM, I'll keep you updated on my projects. Reach me for words of encouragement, listening ear, a prayer. I am serious, NOW!!... Do it! Aba iseini 💗

~ Ellie ~

~ EmbraceU IAM ~

Late Night Snack....

 Hey Embracer's 

How are you doing?, How was your day?, Church service was great, from the worship to the Word. The babies and I went for a walk around the neighborhood. Today was strictly to be present!. what i mean by being present is learning how to enjoy the divine goodness surrounding me. Outside was beautiful. the leaves on the ground, wind blowing in my direction Yet you must remain still until Papa God tells you the next instruction. 

I wrote a letter expressing about what was revealed to me as I mediated the other day.

Dear Black Men,

I love you, yet I don't like I don't even know a legit reason why I don't like you. The Society has taught me to downplay the very part of me that I needed to learn. I am deeply apologetic for allowing you to face the battlefield alone and come home to more chaos. I'll work my best to learn more about you because I can admit we lost touch. I desire to like you all over again. Show you that i am down for you. So we can face the battlefield together and be undefeated And one more thing, please forgive me?!.

Sincerely, 

Your fellow apologetic Black woman

Comment below and state your thoughts.

 Remember Embracing you is to loving you.

Stay safe, Stay blessed. Stay prayed up. I love ya'll Take care of yourself. 💗