Quarantine QT.............. week's revelation on expectation!

Hey Embrace'rs

Happy Monday! I've prayed that you were expressed some much love, admiration, and appreciation from the humans you carried and raised. I had a superb great time weekend. As you know, i am always with the kids. but this past Friday, I decided to allow the kids to spend time with their dad; yes, I know the entire time of isolation they have not spent time with each other and it was not because I wanted to be bitter; i felt it was not safe or advisable allow them to be around their dad since the last encounter where he verbally and physically harassed me. During this quarantine, he realized and concluded that we are no longer interested in being an item, and it is strictly about the children's well beings and livelihood. 

So the kids left Friday, late afternoon, I gave them a huge hug and released them to their dad. OMG, the way they have embraced their dad was such a precious moment ; that it will be forever embedded into my memory because you can actually see, first hand, how much all three of them missed each other. I wished i had my phone to capture that moment. but anyways, They went off with their dad. I returned back upstairs, organized the living room, swept, mopped and listened to some R&B tunes. Thereafter, I took a nap( it felt great! ;-). then i ate dinner, poured me two nice cup of something to drank, cherry lime RITA, with a shot of tequila in it to be exacted. I am sipping, watching and laughing at videos of empowered women on you tube. all of while my mom was jokingly checking up on me to see if i was asleep or a wake. the energy was tranquil and enjoyable. First time, This year, I actually had some 'me time', and I embraced every moment of it. But, it came to stoppage on Saturday afternoon, when the kids' dad called me stating that he had to return the kids back home because he had a huge argument with his dad( their granddad). 

As I mentioned above and previously, this time of isolation as caused me to stay in the Word more often than usual to sustain my mental state. I already had about 4 mental breakdowns; and usually suffered in silence. But I am happy now. I am well and able to balance my daily routine and my goals because this, too shall pass. all things of this world is temporary and things of God is eternal. So all I am doing is Looking Up! and standing in a state of expectancy for the Lord. Anything in my heart, I, too shall give to the Lord Our God and He will make it better. 

You asked; Ellie, what is the point you are making here?,  I am glad you asked, because this past weekend expressed to me that in everything I have experienced or felt during this isolation period, God is still very much with me, and us. we can not give up! Stay prayed up! Be still. Because The Victory belongs to Him. and we need to Trust in Him. He, Our Creator, is in control of it all. So as much as you, as humans, as a woman, as a mom want to control everything. we can not, even if we tried....... If so, We are going to drive ourselves to another mental breakdown.  And then what?, so that is all I have for you. 

Always know that Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. 

Continue to stay safe. Stay well. Stay blessed. Aba Isieni.

~ Ellie ~ 

I am EmbraceU 

Quarantine QT............Weekend bond & cold tea!

Hey Embrace'rs

Happy Monday!!! How are you feeling? how are you doing?. Two months on locked down. What have you accomplished? Did you learned anything different about yourself? or picked a hobby?
This past weekend was mommy and kids day, no writing, no working, strictly bonding with the children. I enjoyed myself, so did the kids. We finally went outside, they rode their scooters, i walked, they picked up some flowers, for me. (which was the best part because I love flowers ). then they wanted to ride to McDonald. Sis had money in her pocket and wanted to spend it with her little brother. We got home, had a indoor picnic, with snacks, soda, water and played monopoly mommy edition, I am horrible at board games, so we were just winging that shit. my daughter took a short nap, explained that she had a long day and she had fun so she is charging her battery. ( if i have not told ya'll yet i am telling ya'll now that little girl do NOT TAKE NAPS);which means mommy mission accomplished!!
Oh Yeah, can i finally say my kids' father is finally letting go, THANK YOU JESUS!!!,Currently planning on a notarized written statement, consisting visitations,children's  allowance, and signed travel consent; so there will not be any future confusion between the both of us.
Oh!, I am soon will be an official homeowner, ya'll! Just emailed a response back on accepting my terms, just need to print some copies to be ready for my appointment visits. I AM SO EXCITED! I am going to finally be a homeowner. My dreams is slowly coming to reality. it was challenging yet rewarding to say the least. Today, have been a chill day- kids are happy and whole, mami cooling and whole. everyone else is working hard and whole. As for next time, I shall have some more to tell. 

To manifest your dreams into reality:

1. write it down, give to God, Be specific- It is nothing like receiving something you really did not want. God is a Big God, Ask Him and dare to receive it. He may answer overnight or He may need to work some things within you. then release it so you'll be prepared to receive it. 

2. Do your part- faith without work is dead! . for instance, if your goals involves needed improvement financially, emotionally, physically,and mentally. It is necessary to practice stewardship; managing all resources God has provided to you for His Glory.

 3. Stay prayed up!, talking with Our Creator of the universe is free; He is always listening, He cares, and He is the comfort that you need. Follow those instruction, and watch yourself walk right into your dreams into your reality. Take in all I am speaking to you because it is all about love and unity to reach your greatness. 

Remember Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. 

Stay well. Stay Safe. Stay blessed. I love ya'll.

~ Ellie ~EmbraceU I am

Quarantine QT....... week's revelation of honesty, and no expectations

Hey Embrace'rs


WE MADE IT TO ANOTHER FRIDAY!! what a delightful expression to be here, the sun still shining, nice weather, and extremely peaceful. Tell me about yourself?,your day?, how are you feeling?. what did you do today?, what colors are you wearing?
This week has been pretty cool to me, i walked this week, enjoyed some QT with my babies, read two books, watched a few sermons, had an EX-factor revelation!!............
So now we have described our week. Let me tell you about the highlight of my week, the holy spirit been speaking to me ode this week and i definitely had the ears to listen to it all. As you know, walking in faith; it is extremely important to be obedient to the Word of God. Because being obedient is what leads to your blessings. 

Many people, perhaps have a difference of opinions and perception of the higher being of the universe. However, I believe in the Trinity. God, the Son of God  and the Holy Spirit. they are very much real and My life is a living proof of it. .
So yeah, let me tell you about the revelation I've experienced. Remember how I told ya'll that I've been through an abusive relationship, well my ex wrote to me, in very respectable manner this time, that i had no choice to respect back.   Initially it took me aback; which means, I had to study in the word, mediate, ask God to guide me in what to say, how to say it, and not to expect anything, as far as a response.Just be open, honest, and respectful. So I did.
 I read his email, then I wrote him back via email. As I was writing this email, stating my feelings of how he made me feel throughout the entire decade we been dealing with each other, followed by a deep conversation, a couple days after, discussing it all. I truly believe that those two experiences has been the eye opener of the healing process of both him and I finally establishing a healthy co existing and co parenting relationship. Establishing boundaries about the well being and welfare of our children. We had spoken  and we were both open to listening to understand one another, no expectations, no disappointments and it went extremely well. As i am not surprised at all; since it was not all me in it. All glory go to God! Because my flesh definitely wanted to defend defend defend......... yet I held it down for a bigger picture in all this. the conversation gotten intense, it was a little bit of passionate yelling going on, but overall, it went very well.
But if you didn't get a hold of the point I was conveying here, is this ?.
Whenever you are healing from a traumatic experience(s), or person in your life, To move forward in the healing process, Be open, be honest, use your active listening skills, and Trust in the God (in the higher power) in your direction in what to say, even if and when you have a bouts of fear. Just Trust in Him.
That is all I have for ya'll. Have a wonderful night. Stay well, Stay safe. Keep in mind that Love is the new religion and Unity is our mission. Embracing yourself is to loving yourself. Until next time. Love Ya'll!. 

Aban Isieni  xoxo

~ Ellie ~

I am EmbraceU 

Quarantine OT..... progression not perfection

Hey Embrace'r

Happy Joyful Monday!! How you been?, how are you feeling?.Seriously, I really do care......... Quarantine week 5. Let me tell you some realness about the energy i am receiving in this house is so negative. everyone is just sick of this shit, sick of everyone you hear me?, its beautiful outside and we are not allowed to be free to play and smell the roses up close &personal.
I've been learning to be extremely joyful and at peace in the midst of this shift. Yes, we are shifting from what was and what's going to be; adjusting to the new normal. Whatever, in your life you see fit that you need to shift. while you are here- you should practice how your should respond and think in the midst of it.
Start your day in prayer, it is highly suggested to devote yourself spiritually DAILY!!, in order to remain leveled in this country's lock down and crisis. Secondly, create a daily to-do list, from work from home duties, homeschooling, stretching, workout, leisure reading, connect with friends,family, and business partners. Honestly, It is going to be days where you do not want the sight of  any electronics devices. third, Take care of your temple ( your body), you are inside, being a couch potato by default, you don't want to start looking like one. begin a health regime,  take a shot of wheat grass, or ginger, grab a piece of fruit or veggies, eat a nutritious balanced meal, if you care to cheat on your favorite indulges, GO 'head!. but don't stay there. Get Back, Focus at your health task at hand.
Lastly, REST; meaning save room for  down time ( stillness), and/or take a nap, how ever you see fit in the day. you deserved it!

I am going to ask you some questions for you to think, process, and answer? you are welcomed to express it below.
1) Did I at least accomplished the important tasks for the day?,
2) Towards the end of the day, how did you feel?

Even if you did not feel, not too proud of yourself, its okay!, we are not looking for perfection, but progression. As long as you learned something about yourself, and developed an awareness of self.  Keep in mind, Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. I love ya'll. Stay Well, Stay safe. Until next an time! Aban Isieni. 

  

 ~ Ellie ~

      I am EmbraceU

Quarantine QT.....business,love, & writing

Hey Embrace'rs

I am back. Working on my consistency in my writing. Too many events has occurred in the last month that I really did not want to be bothered with anything. Adjusting to our new normal, we are currently in Day 27 Quarantine and may I say it been one hell of a lock down. however, I've also been extremely grateful that my family, friends, neighbors, and people i care deeply for are covered by the Blood of Jesus.
During this time, I've registered my business to the state of New York, Completed the required checklist for my business to run accordingly. As you know, the name of my business is Embrace U, LLC ; is a faith organization where we provide assistance to our communities of mothers, families, and young adults on the importance of loving their selves through health, financial literacy, and education.
Also, I've been virtual dating one special man, whom I've mentioned in the last chat. Yeah, everything about him; Let's say He is The One!, i am enjoying my time with him. Of course, we are taking it slow for the simple fact that we both recently ended a 10+ year relationship, currently co parenting. i feel like he has been living my life through a man perspective. Which sounds pretty odd, from societal perspective. the way he makes me feel is much deeper than the flesh. He is everything I've prayed for and then some. he encourages me to be better and thrive to my best. I even started writing poetry also. Girlll, its been YEARS, I've not written anything close to a poem. i just lost the drive to write.
But NOW, i found my passion in writing again, it feels great. this is the reason why it is important to get to know yourself again after separating from a failed relationship.  Also, He loves my kids as i do his. we share similar values in morals, parenting, marital, and spiritual. I will tell you more about my love life, and business life. As you noticed  I am walking in my purpose. and beginning to live my dreams.
Remember Embracing you is to key to loving yourself. besos xoxo

~ Ellie ~

I am EmbraceU

Grow 2 Glow your way to Love!

Hey Embrace'rs

Can i be honest and tell ya'll that i am so grateful that i opened my heart to love again. First of all, Love starts within. You have to do the work. And I did my work; and it was hard as hell. Yet, i did it. And i am sooo proud of myself. i do not give myself enough credit when it comes to the progression I've made in the last 2 years. But thanks to my business mentor, he helped me recognized that.

Start with writing down your dreams, put it in an envelope and write it to God, The Universe, higher ups. this will begin the journey of SELF (your higher self), align yourself spiritually, by prayer, and mediation. Focus on your health, Then unravel your truths,and baggages, and start journaling.
 In the beginning, you will despise yourself , but don't stop there; keep asking yourself questions, stay aligned. And therapy is highly recommended for this step. While you are doing your work, you will walk right into finding your purpose. Let me tell you, when you walk purposely in this life; you will walk into some things and people you are going to begin to glow and grow.

 That Grow 2 Glow stage, honestly you won't even realized that you are glowing until multiple people start to notice it and point it out to you. but  baybeeee it feels GREAT!!!.
 So let me tell you, there was a cultural 'baile' called pororo,  that occurs every holiday season. and around that time, i was struggling financially yet i kept my faith intact and God pulled thru for a sista,  I am so glad i went because i enjoyed myself so much, it felt different than the other years i went to pororo and Guess what??, HE CAME!!... i saw HIM; whose he?.....my husband. :) just in his element looking how he looking, enjoying the vibe of the 'baile'. when i left , i had the BIGGEST smile on my face going home, like that man does some things to my spirit, that only a person who is aligned spiritually would know and understand.

To open yourself to love again, starts with you, write down your dreams of all sorts, begin to spiritually align yourself through prayer, mediation, take care of your health, and your finances (change any eating/ money habits), start journaling. Allow the work to begin. And always embrace yourself  through this journey of  personal development, and things will begin to open up in your life.
Remember Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. Stay blessed, Stay safe. Stay well. Love you.

Ellie

~ I am EmbraceU ~

Safety First, Forget all the beliefs!.....

Hey Embrace'rs

Here I am again with the stories to tell ya'll. Today is the day to express how i am feeling. Yet it is only the beginning. too many incidents have  happened in the last couple weeks. Long story short, court papers had to be served.
Remember when i mentioned how my previous relationship was like a roller coaster that i kept getting on and i already knew better not to get on. Wellllll i finally got off and i am staying off. this is a very challenging and trying time for me. Because i swore to myself that i would never ever keep my children away from their dad. And here i am with the hand i was dealt to keep them away from him for theirs and my own safety. Honestly being a woman of Domestic Violence sucks!!. especially when you share multiple children with your abuser. In order to stay firm in the placed boundaries, at times you must go against your beliefs and go for your safety.
All of those years that i feared of leaving this relationship kept me from receiving the real love, understanding, and warmth from the very people that i loved deeply, and dearly. I thought I was protecting my family from him but when i realized i was protecting him by isolating myself.
Please, who ever is going through a domestic violence case go and tell a trusted person in your family, or professional because the people who you are going to need are the ones that already knew the deal in the first place and will get you through this trying time.
Two: Do not be ashamed! you are NOT alone! Even professionals go through DV
Three: Get grounded with your spirituality! Trust, you are going to need something more divine and greater strength than you to get through.
When it comes to considering what is ideal for you and your children safety. Remember Withhold all the beliefs and think about SAFETY FIRST! Us as mother and the primary caregivers we have to place our beliefs in the back burners and Do what is safe for the tribe. these children only get ONE MOTHER!!! protect yourself! take care of yourself! Stay blessed. I love ya'll. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself.

~ Ellie, I am EmbraceU ~

No Shame...its much Bigger!!!

Hey Embrace'rs

Its been a while, i know. but let me tell you  about my relationship with my children's father, now ex. You ever been on the highest roller coaster at an amusement park?, get on the ride, knowing you are taking a huge risk; unprepared to face the consequences of this decision,yet still get on the ride. Yeah, that is how the entire relationship consisted of. Now I've matured out of that young, risque mentality. you know attracted to  the "bad boy" type of men. i am so much deserving, and worthy of real love.
I've done much work on myself that i realized i was ashamed to verbally state that i am a  survivor of abuse and i am still pushing along the scarring of the abuse. My abuser still tries very hard to wheel me back in, with the fact that, we shared children together and the love i HAD for him. however, he has not concluded that i am seriously not playing games with him. All sides are with me and i am going come up on top. God is with me; then WHO can be against me.........NOBODY!!!!! ( keith sweat said best, you hear me ladies). if you feel that you can not go on with the abuse; it is your time to make moves in receiving the help you need to move forward in peace and safely. We are the small percentage that has survived such incident like domestic violence. So PLEASE Ladies , ABUSE comes in all shapes, colors, and sizes. DO NOT be ashamed of what society says. SPEAK OUT! Speak UP! Embrace U thru this journey 'cause you are definitely not alone. And if you have children. Please consider their livelihood and future well being. End the generational curse of our ancestors!! this is must bigger than the superficial circumstances.
Love y'all. Stay blessed. Stay safe. You are loved. Embrace U is the key to loving yourself.

         ~ Ellie ~

      I am EmbraceU