Quarantine OT..... progression not perfection

Hey Embrace'r

Happy Joyful Monday!! How you been?, how are you feeling?.Seriously, I really do care......... Quarantine week 5. Let me tell you some realness about the energy i am receiving in this house is so negative. everyone is just sick of this shit, sick of everyone you hear me?, its beautiful outside and we are not allowed to be free to play and smell the roses up close &personal.
I've been learning to be extremely joyful and at peace in the midst of this shift. Yes, we are shifting from what was and what's going to be; adjusting to the new normal. Whatever, in your life you see fit that you need to shift. while you are here- you should practice how your should respond and think in the midst of it.
Start your day in prayer, it is highly suggested to devote yourself spiritually DAILY!!, in order to remain leveled in this country's lock down and crisis. Secondly, create a daily to-do list, from work from home duties, homeschooling, stretching, workout, leisure reading, connect with friends,family, and business partners. Honestly, It is going to be days where you do not want the sight of  any electronics devices. third, Take care of your temple ( your body), you are inside, being a couch potato by default, you don't want to start looking like one. begin a health regime,  take a shot of wheat grass, or ginger, grab a piece of fruit or veggies, eat a nutritious balanced meal, if you care to cheat on your favorite indulges, GO 'head!. but don't stay there. Get Back, Focus at your health task at hand.
Lastly, REST; meaning save room for  down time ( stillness), and/or take a nap, how ever you see fit in the day. you deserved it!

I am going to ask you some questions for you to think, process, and answer? you are welcomed to express it below.
1) Did I at least accomplished the important tasks for the day?,
2) Towards the end of the day, how did you feel?

Even if you did not feel, not too proud of yourself, its okay!, we are not looking for perfection, but progression. As long as you learned something about yourself, and developed an awareness of self.  Keep in mind, Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. I love ya'll. Stay Well, Stay safe. Until next an time! Aban Isieni. 

  

 ~ Ellie ~

      I am EmbraceU

Quarantine QT.....business,love, & writing

Hey Embrace'rs

I am back. Working on my consistency in my writing. Too many events has occurred in the last month that I really did not want to be bothered with anything. Adjusting to our new normal, we are currently in Day 27 Quarantine and may I say it been one hell of a lock down. however, I've also been extremely grateful that my family, friends, neighbors, and people i care deeply for are covered by the Blood of Jesus.
During this time, I've registered my business to the state of New York, Completed the required checklist for my business to run accordingly. As you know, the name of my business is Embrace U, LLC ; is a faith organization where we provide assistance to our communities of mothers, families, and young adults on the importance of loving their selves through health, financial literacy, and education.
Also, I've been virtual dating one special man, whom I've mentioned in the last chat. Yeah, everything about him; Let's say He is The One!, i am enjoying my time with him. Of course, we are taking it slow for the simple fact that we both recently ended a 10+ year relationship, currently co parenting. i feel like he has been living my life through a man perspective. Which sounds pretty odd, from societal perspective. the way he makes me feel is much deeper than the flesh. He is everything I've prayed for and then some. he encourages me to be better and thrive to my best. I even started writing poetry also. Girlll, its been YEARS, I've not written anything close to a poem. i just lost the drive to write.
But NOW, i found my passion in writing again, it feels great. this is the reason why it is important to get to know yourself again after separating from a failed relationship.  Also, He loves my kids as i do his. we share similar values in morals, parenting, marital, and spiritual. I will tell you more about my love life, and business life. As you noticed  I am walking in my purpose. and beginning to live my dreams.
Remember Embracing you is to key to loving yourself. besos xoxo

~ Ellie ~

I am EmbraceU

Grow 2 Glow your way to Love!

Hey Embrace'rs

Can i be honest and tell ya'll that i am so grateful that i opened my heart to love again. First of all, Love starts within. You have to do the work. And I did my work; and it was hard as hell. Yet, i did it. And i am sooo proud of myself. i do not give myself enough credit when it comes to the progression I've made in the last 2 years. But thanks to my business mentor, he helped me recognized that.

Start with writing down your dreams, put it in an envelope and write it to God, The Universe, higher ups. this will begin the journey of SELF (your higher self), align yourself spiritually, by prayer, and mediation. Focus on your health, Then unravel your truths,and baggages, and start journaling.
 In the beginning, you will despise yourself , but don't stop there; keep asking yourself questions, stay aligned. And therapy is highly recommended for this step. While you are doing your work, you will walk right into finding your purpose. Let me tell you, when you walk purposely in this life; you will walk into some things and people you are going to begin to glow and grow.

 That Grow 2 Glow stage, honestly you won't even realized that you are glowing until multiple people start to notice it and point it out to you. but  baybeeee it feels GREAT!!!.
 So let me tell you, there was a cultural 'baile' called pororo,  that occurs every holiday season. and around that time, i was struggling financially yet i kept my faith intact and God pulled thru for a sista,  I am so glad i went because i enjoyed myself so much, it felt different than the other years i went to pororo and Guess what??, HE CAME!!... i saw HIM; whose he?.....my husband. :) just in his element looking how he looking, enjoying the vibe of the 'baile'. when i left , i had the BIGGEST smile on my face going home, like that man does some things to my spirit, that only a person who is aligned spiritually would know and understand.

To open yourself to love again, starts with you, write down your dreams of all sorts, begin to spiritually align yourself through prayer, mediation, take care of your health, and your finances (change any eating/ money habits), start journaling. Allow the work to begin. And always embrace yourself  through this journey of  personal development, and things will begin to open up in your life.
Remember Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. Stay blessed, Stay safe. Stay well. Love you.

Ellie

~ I am EmbraceU ~

Safety First, Forget all the beliefs!.....

Hey Embrace'rs

Here I am again with the stories to tell ya'll. Today is the day to express how i am feeling. Yet it is only the beginning. too many incidents have  happened in the last couple weeks. Long story short, court papers had to be served.
Remember when i mentioned how my previous relationship was like a roller coaster that i kept getting on and i already knew better not to get on. Wellllll i finally got off and i am staying off. this is a very challenging and trying time for me. Because i swore to myself that i would never ever keep my children away from their dad. And here i am with the hand i was dealt to keep them away from him for theirs and my own safety. Honestly being a woman of Domestic Violence sucks!!. especially when you share multiple children with your abuser. In order to stay firm in the placed boundaries, at times you must go against your beliefs and go for your safety.
All of those years that i feared of leaving this relationship kept me from receiving the real love, understanding, and warmth from the very people that i loved deeply, and dearly. I thought I was protecting my family from him but when i realized i was protecting him by isolating myself.
Please, who ever is going through a domestic violence case go and tell a trusted person in your family, or professional because the people who you are going to need are the ones that already knew the deal in the first place and will get you through this trying time.
Two: Do not be ashamed! you are NOT alone! Even professionals go through DV
Three: Get grounded with your spirituality! Trust, you are going to need something more divine and greater strength than you to get through.
When it comes to considering what is ideal for you and your children safety. Remember Withhold all the beliefs and think about SAFETY FIRST! Us as mother and the primary caregivers we have to place our beliefs in the back burners and Do what is safe for the tribe. these children only get ONE MOTHER!!! protect yourself! take care of yourself! Stay blessed. I love ya'll. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself.

~ Ellie, I am EmbraceU ~

No Shame...its much Bigger!!!

Hey Embrace'rs

Its been a while, i know. but let me tell you  about my relationship with my children's father, now ex. You ever been on the highest roller coaster at an amusement park?, get on the ride, knowing you are taking a huge risk; unprepared to face the consequences of this decision,yet still get on the ride. Yeah, that is how the entire relationship consisted of. Now I've matured out of that young, risque mentality. you know attracted to  the "bad boy" type of men. i am so much deserving, and worthy of real love.
I've done much work on myself that i realized i was ashamed to verbally state that i am a  survivor of abuse and i am still pushing along the scarring of the abuse. My abuser still tries very hard to wheel me back in, with the fact that, we shared children together and the love i HAD for him. however, he has not concluded that i am seriously not playing games with him. All sides are with me and i am going come up on top. God is with me; then WHO can be against me.........NOBODY!!!!! ( keith sweat said best, you hear me ladies). if you feel that you can not go on with the abuse; it is your time to make moves in receiving the help you need to move forward in peace and safely. We are the small percentage that has survived such incident like domestic violence. So PLEASE Ladies , ABUSE comes in all shapes, colors, and sizes. DO NOT be ashamed of what society says. SPEAK OUT! Speak UP! Embrace U thru this journey 'cause you are definitely not alone. And if you have children. Please consider their livelihood and future well being. End the generational curse of our ancestors!! this is must bigger than the superficial circumstances.
Love y'all. Stay blessed. Stay safe. You are loved. Embrace U is the key to loving yourself.

         ~ Ellie ~

      I am EmbraceU

HerStory

Hey Embrace'rs

Happy Sunday! Today has been a great day for me. the words I've received was  Get Up, Pick up your mat, and Just Walk. I went to church today to get my daily feeding of the word and something so miraculous and life changing happened. My children also gotten the chance to witnessed. I experienced being baptized again but as an adult. i once was baptized as a infant through a catholic church.  however, I was still a bit skeptic towards the whole thing. but now I made the CHOICE to submerge my sins in water and come out white as snow and officially become a follower of Jesus.
Embrace'rs, Don't mean to sound all righteous and holy. however,  moments like this are what  most of us,women, that are moms, or motherly figure raising little humans need to hear. I lived my life as an abused woman, inflicted with infidelities, ashamed to share that with my family and friends, this kept me in isolation for years. when i did come out to be with loved ones. my abuser, also the father of my kids would begin his toxic behaviours.  Imagine dealing with that then come home and he sleep peacefully while I'm here anxious and nervous of what he wanted or better yet, what I've done. As for me, i did not want to separate the dynamic of the two parent household.

 So that was my reason for staying. yet my reason for leaving was far greater than the reason for staying and it was I FINALLY WANTED TO BE HAPPY and Express to my kids, what love really looks like. Having two parents (mom &dad) in the same house, but  it doesn't express the love God express to us is not real love. Now it was not easy; believe me in between then and now I've done took him back about three times maybe more. Yet this time i am STANDING MY GROUND!! the holy spirit has helped tremendously in doing so.
there are plenty to say on this note, however i am going to save the juicy parts of my story  for the next story time! I love you. Stay Safe. Stay blessed. 
Keep in mind, Love is the new religion and Unity is the mission. Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. Aban Iseini

 

~ Ellie~

I am EmbraceU

Introduction of I am EmbraceU

Hey Embrace'rs

Good Day! My name is Eliud Maura Guzman . I am 31 years old. I was born and raised in the city of Brooklyn NY. I am a Garifuna American woman with two children, ages 9 and 4. I am the 4th of 6 sibling. I currently reside with my mother, my uncle, my two kids,and  now my younger cousin( whose not so little) in  a two bedroom apartment in the Marlboro houses in the section of Gravesend Bk. For about 5 years now, I've been living with my mom. Let's talk about no quiet time or space for yourself, really?.. unless you lock yourself in the bathroom for about 20 minutes.lol. Which also happens to be my prayer closet.
Before i moved back to my mom's, I lived with my then fiance, also the father of my kids in South side, Jamaica Queens. That alone, will need several time with you all. Yet i promise is all going be worth it when i tell my story is to simply rejuvenate the sense of hope,  strength, and courage for us women and moms to Don't Ever forget YOUR crown when it comes to loving someone else.

 Because you matter! Your worthiness is much higher and precious than any material items or penis in this world. Well that is all for tonight. Until next time. Take care of yourself. Stay Blessed. Good Night! I love you all! Embracing yourself is the key to loving yourself. 

~Ellie~

 I.am.EmbraceU