Happy Wednesday!! how are you doing? what did you do today to make someone's day? How are you feeling in this moment?. I had mind-blowing revelation about myself last night. I'll tell ya'll about soon enough. But first let me tell you about my week. I'm not sure if i mentioned it, but the babies are spending time with their dad in Virginia for the rest of the summer. So I've went out of town to go visit my best friend since high school. Mannn oh man i had a great time, it felt so good to actually travel alone and do what I wanted to do. I returned late afternoon yesterday. Feeling so rejuvenated and refreshed. I started studying my notes for my course of healing voices. i thought yesterday was the Zoom meeting and it is tonight. I have to do my first presentation on Shame and I believe I am ready to share my Talk on Shame. I am grateful for these opportunities of rejuvenation because I began to feel a bit depressed, anxious, and apprehensive because things were not moving fast enough for me. Unknowingly realizing that my thoughts are not better than God's thoughts. My ways are not better than God's way. So I prayed, asked, received, rested. I accompanied Tiana ( my best friend ) on her journey in house searching. I strongly believed that right there was for me. the reason why I say that, you remember when I've mentioned about becoming a homeowner, well it have not came to pass YET. But I feel it coming soon. God was just there; observing how I've received the opportunity. Both me and T looked at 4 houses, and in each one I found what I desire in a home. I needed to be out the projects and be around another form of housing and living to manifest what I want to desire in my life. Oh yeah, guess what, T tarot card read me and it was interesting and intriguing. It read to me that I was still holding on to some ties to my past, hindering the prosperity of my future.
So as you know, I am studying my notes on Shame to prepare for my Zoom Talk. I concluded that I mentally created an image of my ego named Dulce ( a sweet, caring, warm, beautiful exterior and when applied some heat to her; she gets sticky, messy, indifferent towards whomever brought the heat). In reality, Dulce was protecting me ( Eliud ) in not feeling wanted nor desirable to the very person I was in a relationship with. I laid that down and gave it to God. It is Done!
Also, I had lunch with one of my mama in Christ, her name is Tammy and she is awesome. She has been there for me and my babies since the day I devoted 100% to Christ through Baptism. she has revealed her testimony to me.And it was heartfelt. She has been through some thangs Yet God had her covered the WHOLE time. Her story was beautiful and it gave me so much hope. grace, and mercy towards my circumstances with my ex.
Ladies, Gents, young people, From everything I've expressed to you. please resonate this: Confront your Shame. Name it if you have to. Lay it Down( call the thing a thing), and Give it to God. the holy spirit will reveal some answers to you that needed to be said about yourself. Don't get upset. Embrace it. Own it. heal and Move forward. Because your number one goal to overcome trauma is To heal from it.
Remember through the good, bad, and the ugly embracing you is the key to loving you. If you do not love you why you would you want someone to love you the way you deserve.
Love is the religion and Unity is the mission. Have a wonderful Night! Until next time. I love you. I am proud of you. Aba Iseini
Please comment below and email me if you need advice or prayers.
~Ellie
I am EmbraceU
No comments:
Post a Comment